My story
It didn’t begin with a plan. It began with loss.
Losing my father and then my brother was the most painful chapter of my life, but it was also the moment everything changed. Grief has a way of forcing you to look honestly at yourself, and what I saw made me realise I needed to become a different man.
I had always trained, but if I’m honest it was never really about health. It was about ego. I also drank at weekends and told myself it was fine. The anxiety, the poor decisions, the fog that followed me through every week: I just hadn’t connected the dots yet.
The turning point was a simple decision: Dry January 2022. One month without alcohol became two. Two became three. And I haven’t had a drink since. My anxiety disappeared. I became more present, more engaged, more myself.
Sobriety opened a door, and through it I found daily journaling, an honest daily conversation with myself. I cut out ultra processed food and started eating only real food. I began training for function rather than ego, and added yoga and fasting.
Then the question arrived that became the foundation of everything: does it add value to my life? If the answer was yes, I kept it. If it wasn’t, I let it go.
Self love is not selfish. When you become the best version of yourself, you become the best person for everyone around you.
This journal is the tool that started it all for me. Now I’m putting it in your hands.
Qualified Strength & Conditioning Coach · over two decades in sport and coaching, including Sports Acrobatics, football and rugby · wellness advisor at The Sanctuary Thailand.
